As many of you know, last weekend we were at birthing classes all weekend at the hospital where we will be having Caleb sometime in the next four weeks(!). They were helpful, we saw a lot of videos of births and learned about some possible situations that folks might not be expecting (e.g. emergency c-section). […]
One Year Ago Today, We Became Parents
One year ago today our sons, Micah and Judah, were born. We were so terrified and excited about the idea of twins. And yet, we were only given an hour or so with them. This past week we were in New York visiting Sarah’s family, and I was able to hold Skylar, my niece. It was […]
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day
The Sound of Sheer Silence
Yesterday I preached a sermon at my church in which I talked about losing Micah & Judah, and the silence that I felt from God during that time. I don’t know if it will be encouraging to anyone else who may be going through the loss of children, but I wanted to share it here […]
Being Pregnant Again After Losing Children
We’ve had about thirteen weeks to be sitting with this idea of being pregnant after Micah & Judah…sometimes it feels similar to our first pregnancy. Sometimes it feels much different. I told someone we were pregnant a few weeks ago; I don’t remember where we were, but they asked, “So is this your first?” Again, […]
Others Continue to Remember and Honor Micah & Judah
I continue to be amazed at the way that online & virtual community truly is community. I still receive heartfelt notes, comments, emails and Facebook messages from people I don’t know who keep expressing their love and care and concern for us. On my first Father’s Day this past Sunday, I received a note from […]
6 Months and a Box of Memories
It’s late but I wanted to write a post today. Today makes 6 months since that horrible day in the hospital. It’s hard to believe, really. Every now and then, I’ll just sit back and try and run through that day’s events in my mind, and they are really all a blur. I remember being […]
Sharing in the Grief of Others
As I’ve mentioned on this blog before, my desire to write about grief and my own personal journey was really a selfish desire. I didn’t start writing thinking that my story, my experiences or my anger would be helpful to anyone else – it was simply something I needed to do. However, my writings on […]
Thank You.
Not much to say. Just a note of thanks for all of you who have sent us emails and notes this weekend and today. Today, March 20th, was our singleton due date. It means a lot that you are still with us, on this journey that we didn’t choose. Thank you for your thoughts, your […]
Joy Amidst Sadness
The past month has been an interesting time for us. As many of you probably know, our official singleton due date was March 20, but we never really felt like that was our real due date. We never really knew when Micah and Judah would be born, but we were told to be ready by […]